Mixed Signals

Welcome to the wonderful world of Dating - or not dating. "Hanging out" with that very interesting FRIEND on a Friday or Saturday night is simply innocent. (But you have to admit that that is what makes your weekend interesting, right?)It's that thrill that we live for though, that uncertainty- the guessing game, the thrill of the chase. You wait for some one to call, text and sometimes it drives you insane if they don't. You deny to yourself that you don' t like them like them because you don't want to be disappointed if they end up NOT liking you. But then, signals could go haywire and get confusing. It's worse than getting a rejection because...

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Seminars, Skype, Sleepies and Safari

TGIF. Thank GOD it's Friday. No more seminars, no more boring speakers and long talks, no more falling asleep on my chair. It's been two straight days of that since Wednesday. Both necessary evils for both of my careers ( both as a HR/Admin and as Real Estate Broker) and in both seminars, I became a beautiful dreaming narcoleptic. Seminars like those are important -- very important at least to people like me who need updates every now and then. I know its a learning thing but speakers were not very engaging ( except the one from stateland. She was some kind of wonderful-- with a wonderful outfit! BUT! I was a damn narco that day lack of sleep)...

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Random Thoughts of a Narcoleptic

I was out of the office today. Luckily. I was half asleep the whole day. Narcoleptic because I didnt get sleep. Things were a bit off lately... people keep telling me what to do and not to do and last night I just snapped. Sometimes it's better to just say it out loud than keep it in.I learned to reel in myself last night and also open up enough to keep my dignity. I learned to defend my pride. God, was I proud of myself? yes. Because now, I know I could keep my emotions in check. I didn't cry as much. Logical thinking - yes.I'm listening to a song right now that was suggested on a friend's playlist. ( he's got amazing taste in music -- i swear...

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... Follow the gut feel...

Today I learned a valuable lesson on trust, love, friendship and all things in between. Sometimes, you really have to trust your instincts, and your friends. When your friends says that he's a bad person for you, you should think about dating such person -- or proceed with caution as they say. But I was naive and tried to see the good in each person and maybe that's where I was wrong.You see, smart as I am, my heart is stupid. My heart falls in love at a drop of a hat, a woo, a single touch -- its hotwired to be hypersensitive to romance. Perhaps this is the VALENTINA side they call me for. I was born the day before Valentines day. Doh....

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Random thoughts from BLOODY MONDAY

Adjusting to a new way of working on a Bloody Monday is fun. It's one of those days where I miss being in school again. Technically, it's a holiday. Kids everywhere, school-aged kids, do not have school. It's one of those Gloria-moved holidays where were supposedly celebrating the commemoration of EDSA Revolution today. Bleh. I don't feel or see that, its an ordinary HOT Monday today. The only Celebration I got was when Dad said we were going out for lunch and that means - FREE LUNCH!! -- GOOD LUNCH too... :D Shakey's Pizza and Mojos with my brother and sister and dad :D loads of fun!!Aside from that, it's an ordinary day. I'm having my 2nd cup...

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On Promises

PROMISE. One word. Seven letters. A bazillion meanings. Probably one of the most abused and misused word in the dictionary. Also a word that I both love and abhorr -- probably the word I am most sensitive about - aside from "Love". It's a word I think about the most, and put meaning into the most.So, in layman's terms what is a promise?According to wikipedia, A promise is a transaction between two or more persons whereby the first person undertakes in the future to render some service, gift or assurance...

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Bitch in the house

If there's such a thing as a Bitch-meter I will be off the scales today. Though, its funny. It started to be such a good day, I was even singing to LOVELESS by YAMAPI while putting on my make-up in the staff room. But then something must be in the air because as soon as I learned that some of my files were missing -- I flew off the handle and started bitching. I was such in a foul mood that everyone was on their tippy toes around me. Maybe it was lack of sleep. But yeah i was worse than a firecracker...or an atomic bomb... BOOM!anyway, i mellowed down in the after lunch. A little. Until some demanding SOB decided to bring the bitch back. Why...

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Hearts day and Fabulous 30

I'm 30. It's a damn fact. It doesn't really feel any different- except for the fact that I have, in my mind, aged. Yesterday, I made a big fuss all about it. I threw a party for a small group of friends, reconnected, laughed, sang and thought about how lucky I was to come to this age.I had a blast on my fabulous 3-0 party. Good clean fun with people who are sane, not drunk or do not want to get drunk. Food and laughter were all that mattered, stories, new and old, catching up -- looking into the future and telling each other hopes and dreams. Most people were gearing towards families, careers, and change. Life caught up with us Peter Pans and...

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My birthday fear

im older. i should get into a more serious state of mind. But i feel like peter pan, I don't want to grow up... not really. But, I really have to. It's necessary, if I want a family and if I want to move on. I have taken life lightly up to now. Seriously, I think it step it up. It's not the time to be playing games anymore. I'm old. I feel old. I want to have a serious life. Though, I have to make it happen, it's not going to happen for me.All I want is to have someone to call my own Someone who my family will love as well, someone I can be seriously in love with. Someone who would totally support me in everything I do, and have done. In fact,...

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10 years. 10 days. 10 hours.

10 years.9 days to go. I'll be 30. the Big 3-0. Nearly out of the calendar. And what have I done in my life. I don't know really if I'm excited or not. All I know is that it's big, it's the start of a new decade. And so, what do I have to say for myself this decade? hmmm..MARIA: The telenovelaStarring: MeYep. It's that crazy. The last 10 years have been probably the most stressful, craziest ive ever been. Roaring 20s? more of Dazed and confused. I think I need a recap.20 - started with a bang. literally. left for the US21- adjustment to life in the US.22-fell in love23 - got married24- bliss25- hell. divorced. 26- INSANITY (temporary...

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