How do I get one of those?

How do I get one of those?I like looking at my friend's babies. I have a list of kids I check up on. Sarai, Arwen , Alex, Mappy, Enzo, Igo, Aidan, AJ, Elise, Katrice... and the list goes on and on and on and on. I LOVE KIDS and Im thinking KIDS LOVE ME TOO.I am suffering from Baby Envy. When I see a child with their mother, there are times that I cry for my own. I guess, it's instinct -- or maybe it's pressure. I don't know. All I know is that I need a child of my own - but I know I need to be ready for it. BUT I WANT!!Child raising is not a trivial thing. It costs MONEY. I experience it first hand, seeing how things are with my goddaughter....

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Things that I didn't say...

Yesterday was Luci's day. It was his 29th wonderful year on this planet and I tried my hardest to make it special for him, since it is the first really big occasion we are going to celebrate together as a couple. I did a lot for him - went to extra miles to get everything ready for his special day and yet, I really felt that it wasn't enough. These are the things I did for him:I gave him a surprise early Birthday party last March 13, 2010 wherein his very best friends came and I met them for the first time. I gave him postcards and tried to have a wax seal made for him (still under process)Gave him a birthday card.Made him Gir (dog and bot versions)...

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The Truth about the Coulda-Shoulda-Woulda

What if he liked me back then, what would have happened? What if I didn’t take this course?What if l left this company and stared over on my own?What if? What could happen? I have this thing for What If’s. I want to know what could have been, should have been and would have been. I like thinking and torturing myself about the couldashouldawouldas. There are many things that, in my life, I would like to know what would happen if things didn’t happen the way they did. I like daydreaming about them – making me feel nostalgic and regretful at times. But it’s a guilty pleasure, my brand of masochistic poison that I use to torture myself.But, I realize...

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The most beautiful woman in the world

If there was one person who I wanted to be, I would want to be my mother. My mother is the most beautiful woman in the world. At least in my eyes, She is. She is a true beauty. She, in her youth, rivaled today’s stars. Oh man, am I so lucky to look like her. Though in spite of that me and my mom and I never really got along. Perhaps it was because we were too different, yet ironically, I look most like her. People say that we look like two peas in a pod, like sisters which, of course, I take as a compliment, because she is beautiful. My mother is the most beautiful heart, soul and face that I have seen in my life. It’s just that our ways are...

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Where Grammar meets Numbers and FUGLY to FAB

Before I get to the main topic of this blog, allow me to rant a little about the current colors of 2010. The new uniforms just came. it's up there. In oh so jellybean colors that make me go GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!! And makes my inner fashionista cry... OH MY GOD! Dear Fashion Gods, I hope you got my letter... WAAAAAAAAAAAH!!! How in Mr and Ms Jay's stillettoed catwalk do I make this monstrosity HOT. I guess it's thehate this uniform. Here are my top 3- but not limited to these, rants about the...

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Mr. Just-Right Checklist

Here is the list i wrote waaaaaaaaaay back in 2nd year college of the ideal man / my mr. just-right.... the ones marked in RED are the ones which Luci crossed out.Responsible guy with a job reasonably cute (chinito preferred) smart/intelligent (or at least has semblance of a brain) Loves music (old school/new) Loves anime/ japanese entertainment interested in my hobbies/ likes funny and likes to have fun has passion for something likes kids is a gamer/ geek understands my fandoms/ geekiness likes to read has individuality (no like drones) has strength of character is a MAN (real man, not a boy) could be my best friend must love animals must...

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Happiness!

I am happier than I have ever been. I could fly. I could dream. It's that time when I feel that my reality is totally better than my dreams. I feel light, like a pixie. I think, if Tinkerbell sprinkles pixie dust on me, I would actually fly.Things are turning out for me. I am not mad at anyone, nor am I frustrated. I am simply happy for the simplicity of it. I am happy with friends that care and love me. there may be a few -- but they are truly good and honest friends. I don't need a whole batallion of them anyway. I am happy with my heart. when i stopped trying, things started happening. And when you dont look for it, love comes. I hope and...

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my love letter to coffee

Dear Coffee,I tried to break up with you today. I failed. It seems that no matter how I try, I couldn't break up with you. I need you in my life. I enjoy you with lots of milk, and sugar. As I’ve gotten older and my tastes have grown, you’ve been by my side, constantly evolving yet always a stable friend that I could count on.I used to hate you. I used to think Tea was cooler than you, healther and sweeter. I still do, actually... But no one gives me power like you do. No one refuels me like you...

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Old Friends, New Friends

I'm frustrated and disappointed. I actually feel like a fool for thinking that things are going to magically happen and this party would be a success. But it didn't - it was an effin failure. In fact, I would never again attempt anything like this to save myself from frustration and pain.I thought I could really bring back old ties.... but apparently not. UGH. So out with the Old "friends" in with the NEWAnyway, it turned out to be a blessing in disguise. You see, I planned this Surprise party for...

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Scorchness on a Lazy Saturday

IT'S HOT.I hate the heat. This weather is making me go GAH!!!I can't even write.It's been scorching, mind-numbing and crazy hot lately. Seriously, I have tried everything to cool down. I am currently eating sago't gulaman, fan on me, and will be taking the longest shower since Ondoy. It's that hot. To put it in perspective and to give a name to this heat - My Luci calls it SCORCHNESS.Scorchness is the term for the recent extreme heat. It dries up even braincells in my head and it prevents me from creating blog entries, stories or even working. It's El Niño. It's a dryspell. It's the burning Halo-halo/ ice cream wanting heat we all experience...

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Love Happened. A Confession.

Sometimes, you just have to let it happen. I think the best things in life happen when you simply don't try. It is when you let go that things just magically take shape and you'll be surprised that suddenly, everything falls into place -- when you don't even have to try. I have spent my life looking for that person. You can call him anything - Prince Charming, THE ONE, Mr. Right, The love of your life - but he's still the same person that everyone is looking for the one who completes you, who balances you out and the one who loves you for who you are, what you are and who you will be. I thought I found him once or twice. The last was a disaster....

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What-a-friend!

I just finished this conversation with a guy "FRIEND" who said he was my "best friend" ... it just shows how weak his character is and what he really wants. Panalo ito!! Stay away from guys like these girls...Doygood mrning8:56amMaiamorning8:56amDoyhow r u na dearlets watch mvie nxt week u want8:57amMaiai have to ask my bf eh. ok lang 8:57amDoyah oku hve bf na ba?8:59amMaiayeah. Arent you happy for me.8:59amDoyah ok ciao....9:01amDoyit was a pleasure knwing utnx a lot for everythingforget u met...

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Labeless Love

What is Romance? I swear, if anyone tells me that it's defined by sweet nothings, flowers, chocolates and teddy bears, I will so scream. Honestly. Romantic ideas are passe to me know - in the Been there, done that kind of way. Though, I still like the idea of presents (who wouldn't?) I found myself not really counting them in my list of things I find important for a partner. I also don't like the idea of LABELS in a relationship.Things like boyfriend/girlfriend are mere adjectives to me. To me, labels are passe -- and they just add confusion and pressure to couples.Though, admittedly the claiming of a "label" is thrilling to some, it's not...

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*Kilig*

Omigosh. I cant believe im feeling it again.yun lang. &l...

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Learning

Im learning...to use my head over my heartto control my emotions to tame my tonguepatienceand the waiting gameThings I havent learned before. I think this time its good for me. Rein it in... be careful. Because this time might be your la...

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The Catch

Kuya : you're a catch, maia.. a 10 in my book..Kuya : too bad nga lang most of the guys in your proximity are geeks..Kuya: ....... change "most" to "all"A: You understand anime, you get guys... you play video games, and you rock at them. A: you're hot, you're not a snob, you cook well and are niceA: plus you're smart - REALLY SMART, educated, pretty and decent. And you can actually hold a decent conversation with a guy about guy stuff-- you are God's Gift to geek guys! Why didn't I catch you first?B: If I was there, I would have definitely asked you out. What are guys there? BLIND?!Ok,If I'm so hot and I'm such a catch then why WHY ON EARTH...

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